Thursday, April 28, 2005

day off weather

i don't like having days off from work anymore. they usually just suck. not that going to work is any better, but if my day is going to suck anyway, i'd much rather get paid for it. most of the time what will happen is this. i'll work 4 or 5 days in a row, and every one of those days i'll go to work and it will be the most beautiful day ever. we're talking, beach weather, spend the day at the park weather, just lay out in a hammock weather. you get the idea, beautiful days. then, i'll wake up on my day off and it'll be horrible out. thunderstorms, cloudy as hell but no rain, drizzling slightly but it wont stop for the entire day. that type of thing. but its not always that way. sometimes, today for instance theres a whole different issue. i wake up and it seems like its an absolutely beautiful day. so what's the problem, you ask? i woke up with what i call "the funk." "the funk" for those who don't know, might be described as depression. but its not quite that bad. its like a couple of levels before depression. i just feel kinda bummed. its not totally horrible, i know i'll be over this crap probably by the end of the day, at the worst by tomorrow. it just sucks that i can't ever have a day off where i wake up and the weather is nice and i can actually enjoy it. but i guess that's part of why i'm moving. i'll be working more, which means less time to think about crap and be in "the funk." also, it means less time for crap to happen, so less crap to even think about. i'm hoping that having family around will squash some of the funkiness too.

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